Think before u do

Here are some facts.

When u leave or think of leaving someone, 

don't hope too much or don't be disappointed for him or her to see that u r changed or what yr going through

Next, just don't care abt yr ex partner thinks or do 

Lastly, just hope he or she has cancer n die. 

The greatest mistake

It's been haunting me since... At that time I thought I made the right choice without knowing I was completely wrong, mistake was I thought I could move on but no, I screwed up n this is my life punishment 

The last kiss we shared tasted like a wine
Sweet and bitter like our memories
And I long for you to come right back to me
Tomorrow the time will be the same as today
Nothing goes on in my heart except your memories
Where will you be and who will you think of

You were always gonna be my love and you should know
Even if I fall in love with somebody else
I'll remember to love you (taught me how)
You're always gonna be the one and for now
I'll still be singing this love song for somebody like you, 
My first love

Time after time
Baby I've tried to forget about our life together
But the memories are so, so hard to let go
Tomorrow the time will be the same as today
Trying to hold back the tears and thinking of you
All I want is to be with you once more

You will always be inside my heart
And you should know
That I wish I could have never let you go
I hope that I'll have a place in your heart too
Now and forever still the one and for now
I'll still be singing this love song for somebody like you, 
My first love

You were always gonna be my love and you should know
Even if I fall with somebody else
I'll remember to love you (taught me how)
You're always gonna be the one
I'll still be singing this love song for somebody like you, 
My first love

If only..

If only things handled more professionally, we would still be together...

Only if I was smarter about what to do about the situations last year, we would still be together..

If only I wasn't so hot headed....

It's all a too painful to bear, now I can feel
Numbness

Turning point

I no longer like to go to the cinema to watch movies because I'm heavily reminded of u. I hardly eat my fav uncle bob chicken because we shared this regularly.. I hardly go any shopping malls because memories still lingers..

There was once I drink, drank and hardly drunk because my head was playing last our argument moments after you show me something I didn't wanna see..

There were times I felt like dying...

The 4 letter word.

Its been a long time since my last post.... I`m pretty sure nobody is reading this anymore. its a good opportunity to write this empty space..

Goshh, I don`t know where do I begin, my life has changed so much ever since I left this blog...
Back then was part time studying and part time boyfriend to my greatest love of my life. Now I can only say I miss my old life.... I was happy before I stepped into the working world.

I am now working for almost 3 years. 3 years of Hell and challenges. One word, NEVER BREAK UP WITH YOUR FIRST LOVE. Unfortunately I did. Lots of complication and through that and up till now I still think about her and us even though I thought of moving on. I don't know how to describe the situation I'm in and the situation I was in because I cant, I cant do this alone